Its been awhile...

  Yea tonight I just felt like writing... like the title says," its been awhile"s. Seem like school just keeps me busy... as a history major I read a shit load of books but it hasn't been to bad. Well... maybe my government book but I think anybody can understand that hahaha.
  Since the last time I posted something up, it was the beginning of the school year or near it... i don't remember hahaha but anyways, I got a new phone which is sexy likes its owner, and also got a copy of Gears of War 3 for a super early birthday gift from a good friend of mines. By the way, if you have an Xbox 360 you gotta pick up a copy of it, F**KING AMAZING!!! Yes that was just my gamer side screaming out on this blog lol...
  Even though it seem like school is going good,and my family is doing well... it seems like I am still down. A certain friendship of mines have been bothering me lately. I mean we are good friends and all but we treat each other like assholes... which in a way is funny but in my point of view, its my way to not get close to a person even if its just a friend. (To cut to the point, yes I have problems getting close to people emotionally.) Sometimes its hard for me just to look at my friend in their eyes. It makes me think, is all my close friendships for now on going be this damn hard just because of my past!? I mean shit, I shouldn't let it affect me but it seems like I always have constant reminders. Hopefully this time, I really don't lose a good friend.